i ate a big bowl of pasta, followed by an icecream cone, followed by 6 pieces of chocolate. Yes, I just finished binge eating and I feel heavy as fuck. My stomach so full.
I could have opted to make a salad, but it’s just so much easier to eat something that’s already prepared, or something that just needs to be popped into the oven.
I think I binge ate tonight because I feel I’m not getting enough attention from my friends. I also saw HIM yesterday, after over a week of not speaking… I wonder if that has anything to do with it?
I feel good about being his friend. I think I’m over the idea of being with him. I’m pretty certain that is not what I want anymore. And I was my authentic self yesterday & it felt so good. So good to just be me and not give a damn what anyone else thought.
So now I read and prayer.