I saw my man friend. And here come the rush of feelings I pretend I don’t have for him. I must stop seeing him. Immediately.
Driving to a spot by the lake, a part of a song comes on that takes me right back to 8 years ago, when he and I used to sit in parked cars and talk and listen to music.
It was a Brand New song, the lyrics “the coastline is quiet, as we’re quietly losing control…” And I’m so in the moment. I look over at him and see the glare in his eyes.
It’s happening all over again. It’s fall and I’m falling for him.
For fuck sakes.
Dear god. Please give me strength and courage and power and self worth to move on.