Venting.

Is shit weird again? Oh well.
I like you. I like hearing from you. If that’s a crime, then lock me up!

I’m hella awesome. And maybe we just don’t vibe.
It’s too bad! But like I said, I don’t think you’re ready for this jelly.

So when this happens I have to check out how I’m feeling. This isn’t a fun feeling.
I want to feel loved, I want to feel happy, I want to be wanted and thought about.

So perhaps this boils down to him not meeting my standards. Kinda what I said the other week. So I will leave it alone and see what happens. Or will I be direct and ask him straight up what’s going on.

On the other hand. I hardly know him. Why do I have these crazy expectations?

“I choose to see this from a different perspective. I choose to see this differently.”

We work well in person. It’s the days apart I dislike. The days without communication to be exact.

Dear god, please help me. Please guide me. Please bring my mind and heart peace. I surrender this relationship, even if it means this is the end of it. It will be okay. I just don’t like being in limbo.

So once again, I ask for peace.

Thank you.