With the resurgence of this blog, i am re-reading my posts from years’ past. And just wow! I am going through the same problems in my love relationships that I had 5 years ago. Neediness, not knowing my worth and being comfortable with rejection are common themes. Don’t get it twisted tho, my money towardContinue reading “diff dick, same problem”
The following is a journal entry written on June 9, 2019: “So i met this guy, he’s super interesting, into the moon and stuff and the way the universe works. He taught me about energy and that our energy transfers from one thing to another and never goes away. He’s interesting, smart, cute. Kisses good.Continue reading “the initial spark.”
In this world with so much going on we forget to reflect and see why things are happening the way they are happening. My psychotherapist urges, “it’s not what’s happening TO you, it’s what’s happening for you.” This is the reason why things unravelled in my last relationship. I lost a grip of myself, whoContinue reading “breakups and pandemics.”
…like where is my next hit! Who is the next person that will give me the attention I need and crave? Who will provide me with that fast love? Who will give me that attraction high for the next few weeks? I need my hit!
So get this. Arrived in NY and he isn’t even here to greet me at the hotel. He went shopping instead and now I’m waiting in the lounge area for him, like a bafoon! Not only that but he didn’t even text or call me before my flight. Okay I gotta turn my mood around.Continue reading “Nyc. “
When I start to get upset & wonder about him, I just remember he’s only good looking because of his beard. Without the facial disguise, he doesn’t do it for me, physically. Yes. Superficial, but it helps me through the emotions. April 2020 Update: still looks like this superficial strategy works. As I currently moveContinue reading “Superficial strategy “
See. I’m a reformed easy girl. And I know not how to separate my urges from my standards. And I guess that makes me easy. We hang out, we found each other attractive and we went at it, and because I didn’t make him wait to have a taste, and because he didn’t have to wineContinue reading “Fight song “
She is so hot, I want to bang her. If I say just the right thing maybe then I can feel her insides. She was cool, then got needy. I don’t know… Is she crazy? I think so…. She wants to be my gf already? But I don’t know her….. Will she break my heart?Continue reading “Situation through his eyes:”