when it doesn’t go as planned

Sometimes it can feel like we have to start all over again. When you’re so sure about something and then it doesn’t turn out how you planned, well yeah, this can be a huge bummer. It’s a time when maybe we have to admit we were wrong. This can bring on guilt, anger and uncertainty.Continue reading “when it doesn’t go as planned”

shape shifting into higher vibes

I’m not sure about you, but I can be a cranky mother fucker often times a week. And when in the low vibration funk, I can be irritable, unmotivated, and depressed. When we aren’t feeling right we won’t be able to help ourselves, help others and perform at our best. However, there are things we canContinue reading “shape shifting into higher vibes”

wash yo face.

Just read a few articles on stress and ageing. Turns out, when we’re stressed, our cells start to regenerate slower, causing us to lose collagen and elastin resulting in more fine lines and darker circles… and it gets worse, these effects could last FOR-EV-ER! (Read article at your own peril.) I’ve talked to a lotContinue reading “wash yo face.”

the recovery process

With exercise, as with in life, it’s necessary to take time-outs to recover. When you’re benching 75 lbs, for example, you must take a rest after 8-12 reps, for at least 30-90 seconds, maybe longer depending on your body. We do this so during the next set, we can come at it from a preparedContinue reading “the recovery process”

Dating during COVID-19

Dating is a way we audition each other for parts. Upon meeting, we sit across from each other and verbalize our wants and needs to see if the other person can and wants to deliver these things to us. Vice versa. We wonder what role this potential new person is going to play in ourContinue reading “Dating during COVID-19”

love from the inside out

Self-love comes from the inside out. How do I know this? I lost 80 lbs and in many respects, I still feel like the 255 lbs girl I’ve been for the majority of my life. I’m sensitive to how others perceive me, sensitive to words, quick to be on the defensive, As my waistline slowlyContinue reading “love from the inside out”

when you’re stuck

The hardest part of change is not making the same choices you did the day before. It’s going to feel uncomfortable, and unfamiliar. There will be uncertainty and unpredictability. And in that moment, the game is ON. The body and mind would rather live in fear than trust in the unknown. When we feel thatContinue reading “when you’re stuck”

diff dick, same problem

With the resurgence of this blog, i am re-reading my posts from years’ past. And just wow! I am going through the same problems in my love relationships that I had 5 years ago. Neediness, not knowing my worth and being comfortable with rejection are common themes. Don’t get it twisted tho, my money towardContinue reading “diff dick, same problem”

the initial spark.

The following is a journal entry written on June 9, 2019: “So i met this guy, he’s super interesting, into the moon and stuff and the way the universe works. He taught me about energy and that our energy transfers from one thing to another and never goes away. He’s interesting, smart, cute. Kisses good.Continue reading “the initial spark.”

breakups and pandemics.

In this world with so much going on we forget to reflect and see why things are happening the way they are happening. My psychotherapist urges, “it’s not what’s happening TO you, it’s what’s happening for you.” This is the reason why things unravelled in my last relationship. I lost a grip of myself, whoContinue reading “breakups and pandemics.”