It’s no surprise I am fat! I AM ITALIAN! I grew up in a household where food was never in short supply. I ate two dinners as a kid, and with every win or loss food was the go to. Food was never a means for energy and nutrition for me. Food was my comfort, my entertainment, my medicine. It gave me temporary fulfillment.
In Louise Hay’s book, You Can Heal Your Life; it says, if you are overweight you are running away from feelings, dealing with insecurity, self-rejection and being oversensitive. Fat often represents fear and a need for protection. Fear may also be a cover for hidden anger and a resistance to forgive.
My protection crept on between Grades 2 and 3. I remember my Grade 3 teacher, Ms. Loge, weighed each of her students in front of each other in the nurses office. I was 93 pounds, and my frenemy Didi laughed and blurted it out loud.
The fat on my body serves me a purpose. It kept me safe from finding true love, because if I didn’t accept myself, who else would? Therefore free from social situations and vulnerability.
It kept me safe from success, because I was okay with not working hard. I’m fat, so who expects anything good from me anyway. This prevents me from truly being on my own, and paying my own way. I can always rely on someone else.
Forgiveness & Anger – I am still digging these ones out.
I accept my body and all my curves, lumps & hair. I am at peace with my own feelings. I am safe where I am. I create my own security. I love and approve of myself. I am protected by Divine Love. I am always safe & secure. I am wiling to grow up and take responsibility for my life. I forgive others and I now create my own life the way I want it. I am safe.
I was let go from my job at the beginning of December. This was the first time I was fired, & I was okay with the decision because I was not happy in that environment anymore, and it was starting to show.
I left the building feeling relieved, with a renewed sense of hope for a better job and with two tote bags full of shoes. I took a taxi home & was delighted that everyone would be talking about me and sad I didn’t get to say bye to certain people.
This is how I felt in the days after:
– I felt angry
– I felt used
– I felt unappreciated
– I felt in despair
– I felt lonely
– I felt like a failure
After you sit and stew in what happened, resentful emotions come out to play. I sought for advice, and it was to not focus on how I felt, but to focus on how I wanted to feel.
the better you get at understanding your true needs & taking care of them, the more negative body image thoughts will cease.
2. Running Away From Your Feelings
these are your internal guidance system, your signal that you have a belief, need or feeling that needs attentiong.
3. Insecurity, Self Rejection
negative body image, thoughts/words must be interrupted/ altered at all times
4. Seeking Fulfillment
the body listens to what you’re thinking and responds defensively by keeping fat on your body
Treat your body with respect & apologize to it when you judge it or don’t listen to it.
More & More I Am At Peace With My Own Feelings & Know How to Learn From Them & Shift To Trust, Forgiveness, Peace & Joy.
More & More I Am Safe Where I Am.
More & More I Create My Own Security.
More & More I Love & Approve of Myself.
ps: have you ever worried that one day it will be your anonymous mid-section on the 6 o’clock news during a segment on obesity? do those people have to sign release forms? it seems pretty unfair to just put unsuspecting tummies on blast like that.