The year is 2020, and it might as well be the year 2000. Sure I’ve grown mentally, spiritually, physically and so on over the last 20 years, but the root problem still remains. Hi, my name is Vanessa and I suffer from low self-esteem. The same struggle I’ve had all my life and maybe notContinue reading “The year is 2020…”
Playing big scares the shit out of me. Fear of making mistakes and fucking up, worrying what people think. But it’s only when I put myself out there that things can change and I can grow. It’s scary, but it’s necessary. Maybe it won’t always feel this scary?
…like where is my next hit! Who is the next person that will give me the attention I need and crave? Who will provide me with that fast love? Who will give me that attraction high for the next few weeks? I need my hit!
So get this. Arrived in NY and he isn’t even here to greet me at the hotel. He went shopping instead and now I’m waiting in the lounge area for him, like a bafoon! Not only that but he didn’t even text or call me before my flight. Okay I gotta turn my mood around.Continue reading “Nyc. “
See. I’m a reformed easy girl. And I know not how to separate my urges from my standards. And I guess that makes me easy. We hang out, we found each other attractive and we went at it, and because I didn’t make him wait to have a taste, and because he didn’t have to wineContinue reading “Fight song “
She is so hot, I want to bang her. If I say just the right thing maybe then I can feel her insides. She was cool, then got needy. I don’t know… Is she crazy? I think so…. She wants to be my gf already? But I don’t know her….. Will she break my heart?Continue reading “Situation through his eyes:”
Is shit weird again? Oh well. I like you. I like hearing from you. If that’s a crime, then lock me up! I’m hella awesome. And maybe we just don’t vibe. It’s too bad! But like I said, I don’t think you’re ready for this jelly. So when this happens I have to check outContinue reading “Venting.”
One day he’s calling me his girlfriend, the next day he doesn’t call at all. When I first fell it was like: Wow Wow Wowowowowowowowowow Wow I really like him. I can’t stop thinking about him!!