Self-love comes from the inside out. How do I know this? I lost 80 lbs and in many respects, I still feel like the 255 lbs girl I’ve been for the majority of my life. I’m sensitive to how others perceive me, sensitive to words, quick to be on the defensive, As my waistline slowlyContinue reading “love from the inside out”
The hardest part of change is not making the same choices you did the day before. It’s going to feel uncomfortable, and unfamiliar. There will be uncertainty and unpredictability. And in that moment, the game is ON. The body and mind would rather live in fear than trust in the unknown. When we feel thatContinue reading “when you’re stuck”
With the resurgence of this blog, i am re-reading my posts from years’ past. And just wow! I am going through the same problems in my love relationships that I had 5 years ago. Neediness, not knowing my worth and being comfortable with rejection are common themes. Don’t get it twisted tho, my money towardContinue reading “diff dick, same problem”
In this world with so much going on we forget to reflect and see why things are happening the way they are happening. My psychotherapist urges, “it’s not what’s happening TO you, it’s what’s happening for you.” This is the reason why things unravelled in my last relationship. I lost a grip of myself, whoContinue reading “breakups and pandemics.”
The year is 2020, and it might as well be the year 2000. Sure I’ve grown mentally, spiritually, physically and so on over the last 20 years, but the root problem still remains. Hi, my name is Vanessa and I suffer from low self-esteem. The same struggle I’ve had all my life and maybe notContinue reading “The year is 2020…”
…like where is my next hit! Who is the next person that will give me the attention I need and crave? Who will provide me with that fast love? Who will give me that attraction high for the next few weeks? I need my hit!
it’s amazing to have friends; it’s amazing to be doing things, going out and cultivating these new friendships. but it’s also sad to lose old friends, as the same time. Two people who I thought were there for me have not showed up when I needed them and I’m having really hard time dealing withContinue reading “new.”
Well, my trip is going great, thanks for asking. While you deal with someone you aren’t even into, I was fucking a man in Iceland. I don’t care she slept in your bed while you went to work. I don’t want to know the details.